Wow! This week has been long and crazy. As you all know Monday I had to tow my parents van home after it broke down. We made it and it is now fixed…all a relief. I haven’t gotten to speak to Frank all week. This has been excruciating…I worry, I miss him, and nothing is final without being able to tell it to him! He called this morning and it was the best phone call I have gotten all week. He was able to send me a picture of where he is that I will upload it if I can. I didn’t tell him anything that happened this week because I know that he is busy and doesn’t need to hear that. I will wait until he gets “home” to do that.
What happened…the tractor broke. Yep. I got a good couple hours of work out of it and it quit. I thought it was the gas, because I think the gauge isn’t completely accurate. So, I filled the tank and then I air-bled the gas lines (yes, all by myself and it is pretty damn hard when you have to use a manual to help you do it). I got it started again and then it quit!! The tractor mechanics came out and tweaked it and got it started again, but confirmed what I already thought…the battery cables were almost done for. I have had problem with the battery, so anyway, they have the tractor and they are fixing it. Thank goodness. I fixed the toilet…yep all by myself. I concocted a “pulley plan” for the barn and with my Dad’s help it became mostly a reality. We put 100 bales of hay into the loft and I got it all stacked up nice and neat. I know there is more, but I can’t remember it all…and that is sort of a good thing.
Landon asked if he can take “ballet dance” like Michael. I told Frank and I could almost hear the grimace and the shaking of his head! I will let Landon try it, but the same rule applies…when he doesn’t want to, he doesn’t have to. I don’t want to force him to do anything.
I’m one week away from that dreaded day. I can’t decide what to do with the kids. I prefer holing myself up, but I think they would like to go to the Memorial. I just don’t know if I can handle it alone. We will see. I hate missing two people at once…it was much easier when I only missed one. It is suffocating to miss both Michael and Frank at one time. One thing that they both have in common is that that they both love 4th of July. Frank shies away a bit now because the noise triggers his migraines, but they both love it. I don’t know what to do to give the day it’s justice for both of them…I will figure it out…it might involve a movie projector and an outdoor theater if the rain will hold off!!